Raising my Middle Finger Proudly In the Air As I Fight Alzheimers

As I mentioned in my previous post, my husband and I have noticed a decline which we attribute to my Early Onset Alzheimers. I am more forgetful than ever and it now seems to last for days/weeks rather than just a few hours. Thankfully, I use technology to my advantage and I use Alexa and Siri all the time (see my post) to remind me to do things, help me find my stuff, etc. My husband has noticed my decline as well, and he keeps thanking Alexa for helping me so he doesn’t have to all the time. I also use Tiles which I attach to items of great value to me in case I misplace them. They are little GPS devices that will help me find them if I forget them somewhere. In the last week I lost my wallet and my sunglasses….but I had a tile and I looked at my phone and it had alerted me where I left them and I returned to the location and found them.

I keep trying to convince myself that this is just a phase. I’m tired and have been under a lot of stress over the last few months because of my mother in law declining and my eye surgery. But no matter how much I rest, and sleep my brain fog does not seem to be improving. I keep trying to will it to get better and pray every day that it will. As I am writing this, tears are streaming down my face in frustration. I hate this freaking disease.

I know I am a survivor, and that I am full of piss and vinegar and that I will NEVER give up the fight against Alzheimer’s. I am not going to succumb to this disease any earlier than I have to. Yes, I am feeling a bit defeated and out of sorts, but I still have a lot of things and people that help me with work arounds for my issues. I can’t, I won’t give up or give in. I have too many people I love, too much I still want to do, and too much to contribute to this world.

Not today, freaking Alzhiemer’s, not today.


4 thoughts on “Raising my Middle Finger Proudly In the Air As I Fight Alzheimers

    1. Keep fighting! I too, have noticed more forgetfulness and wandering around my house looking for things I’ve “lost”.
      I caught Covid and that really did a number on me. I’m hoping that as I continue to recover that some of my memory skills will come back. I even thought about going to the Doctor and asking about it, but, I know what he’ll say.
      I’m glad your husband is so supportive. Mine is in denial.
      It’s scary and lonely. I get frustrated when I can’t find things. My short term memory is gone and I struggle so much.
      Fight for yourself and all of us Kelly.
      Keep going.
      Your posts help me realize I am not the only person going through this and also validate the way I feel inside.


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