Two Steps Forward, Three Steps Back

This summer has been wonky for me. I have gone from being very active to very inactive in a period of months, due to my health. I live in Florida and it is very hot here and the humidity has been getting to me. This has caused me to stop golfing, walking, and exercising. I have become very sedentary. I also had a bad fainting episode recently because of my fainting disorder that really set me back. I don’t feel good, I have been gaining weight and I am tired most of the time.

I have met with my cardiologist and electrophysiologist that have indicated my heart condition is getting worse, and the high humidity causes my heart to struggle to keep up. They have added three more medications to my already complicated medicine regimen. UGGH…….I love living in Florida and this is the first summer I have struggled. I keep telling myself that I am also almost 60 in October so this is all new terrain for me. This getting old thing really sucks.

I am usually Pam Positive, the life of the party, annoyingly positive. I am struggling with getting my mojo back. My neurologist tells me I am being too hard on myself and that I push myself too hard. That is just how I am……I have always been a “driver” personality. Having to slow down is hard and it feels like I am in a downward spiral.

On top of all of this, we had a great Viking Cruise scheduled to leave on 9/3/21 that we postponed due the COVID spike. All the worrying about whether or not we were going to cruise was not good for me either. My neurologist wanted me to go because she thinks because of my Alzheimer’s I shouldn’t wait, but my cardiologist and primary doctor advised me against it. So now, I have three really big trips scheduled for the summer/fall with hopes that we can actually go. I most likely will go regardless of the worlds situation. I can’t wait too much longer. Thankfully, I did get to go see my family in Michigan who I haven’t seen in two years this summer, and do a few smaller trips in the U.S. with my husband and got two bucket list items off my list.

So that’s my update. I know it seems like I have dropped off the face of the earth. I just haven’t felt like writing…..been dealing with too many things and just not feeling like it. Tomorrow is a new day though and I am planning on kicking Alzheimer’s ass.

Not today, Alzheimer’s, not today!


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