Sometimes life just gives you lemons. One would think that having early onset Alzheimer’s would be bad enough and more than enough to handle. Last week I had the shock of my life when I went to my annual eye exam and found out that I had narrow angle glaucoma and that my eye pressure was so bad that I could go blind within a few days. I had no symptoms whatsoever. I met with a surgeon and my eye surgery was scheduled five days later.
Unfortunately for me, my situation got much worse over those few days. I was in excruciating pain, terrible headaches, could not sleep or basically function. As you can imagine, none of this is good for anyone, let alone someone with a cognitive disorder. My surgery was successful and we will wait six weeks to see if it did the trick or if any further intervention is required. Please pray for me that it is successful.
Friends and family have texted me over the last week telling me that “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle”. Quite frankly, that is BS. I have knocked all 28 teeth out of my mouth and as a result got a pacemaker, cancer, early onset Alzheimer’s, and now narrow angle glaucoma. Yes, God has given me more than I can handle at this point. I have never smoked, done drugs, drank only for two years in college, eat healthy and exercise all the time. I am as clean as a whistle as anyone could be. I think I’m a good person, yet all this continues to happen to me. There must be a reason. I choose to think that God has put me on this earth to teach others how to be resilient, to be positive and how to continue on and live their life balls to the walls, do good for others and live like I am dying. Why else would he put all this on my plate?
I have been struggling the last few weeks with my memory due to stress and now my medical problems. I am upset and frustrated. I am focused on regaining my energy so I can start exercising again like my life depends on it and regain my cognitive ability. I have always been the girl who’s glass is half full instead of half empty and by God, I am going to regain my strength and get back to the fabulous life I have had up until now. ATTITUDE is EVERYTHING (and so is having my vision)! To say I am grateful for this surgery is an understatement.
Not today, Alzheimer’s, not today!